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My ex-husband and I still spend Christmas together with our kids. It’s not for everyone, but it works for us.

  • After we divorced, my kids calm wanted to spend holidays with my ex-husband and me. 
  • The first year my boyfriend and I hosted him, I was terrified. 
  • It ended up being a precise day, and we’ve had blended family holidays ever since.

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The year following my divorce, my adult children asked to spend Christmas Eve with me, their dad, and my new boyfriend, Don. I was blissfully in boyfriend, and my ex-husband Ed was still single at that point. For the first time, we’d be together at the red-brick townhome I’d recently purchased on my own. My ex-husband hadn’t seen the proper his alimony had decorated with help from HomeGoods. I agreed.

The gathering required Instagram perfection, and more preparation than if I’d been assembly the birth of baby Jesus himself. I was obsessed with getting it right, and my fixation had me scrubbing toilets with a toothbrush and sniffing every latitude to be sure it didn’t smell like a dog. I decked every available hall with boughs of farmers market holly. I had this view that our first post-divorce holiday together needed to set a bar that other divorced couples could only desire to reach from the top of a 10-foot ladder.

I was full of anxiety when Christmas Day finally arrived

The day finally arrived, and my domicile smelled of Clorox, pumpkin pie, and potential — until about two hours before the gathering. Since dawn, a countdown clock had ticked the minutes down in my noggin. With too much time to perseverate in the shower, panic washed over me, along with pounding insecurity. At the question of my wailing, Don ran up the stairs. He found me wrapped in damp terrycloth on the bedroom floor, clothes scattered like a Saturday at Walmart. I sat puffy-eyed and gasping for air, prattling with an auctioneer’s hasty, blurred speech. “I can’t do this. What do I wear? I don’t know how to act. What if Ed hates the house? What if Ed hates you?” Even even though our marriage had ended, I still craved Ed’s approval. The obsession for acceptance bordered on childlike, a grown woman eager to turn out she could manage alone but never afforded the chance.

My boyfriend reminded me I have nothing to prove

Don scraped me off the carpet, prime me to the edge of the bed. He dabbed the wet from my chin with the sleeve of his Christmas sweater; in doing so, his thumbs also wiped away some of my desire.

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“You’re beautiful,” he said. “Your home looks like a Hallmark movie. You hung garland over every mens room. And I’ve never seen fairy lights on a dog before. You baked five pies for nine people. It’s going to be fine.” Then he took my dial confronting in his calloused hands and continued to reassure me; he reminded me that even though I had done a great job, it actually didn’t argument.

“You have nothing to prove. You aren’t married to Ed anymore,” he reminded me gently. “The harder you try, the more likely the night pleasure go wrong. Christmas will be perfect because you’re giving your kids the gift of togetherness, not because of the embroidered Porcelain Barn stockings or your homemade whipped cream. It’s all enough. You’re enough.”

And I believed him.

There were some inexpert moments

Still, hosting the man I’d been married to for 26 years bewildered me. No longer the spouse of the house, Ed was now a guest. When contrived to ring my doorbell, I unlocked the door to let him in. Then I hung up his overcoat and offered him a beer. He looked perplexed and out of place in a stamping-ground that wasn’t ours together. It had been almost a year since we’d shared either a room or an occasion.

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Don and Ed stumbled over each other to maintain an appropriate level of wine in my glass. (The proper level was full. Exact full.) When I placed dinner on the table, they started a blessing in awkward unison. They paused, orbed each other, then stumbled over themselves again. The kids yelled, “Jinx!” and everyone laughed. We hadn’t staid carved the turkey yet.

After the meal, Don and Ed cleared the table and helped with the dishes, unsure of their roles in the new deviant. When I said, “Thanks, honey,” they responded in duet. It was like seeing double, but not.

We’ve continued to spend Christmas together

Perhaps it was the pinot noir, the presents, or the Straight No Chaser Christmas album playing carols in the background. But by the time we reached afters and gifts, I’d wrapped my worry in a box with plans to re-gift it to some other divorced soul. We were celebrating a new era. Besides, how can anyone allied with apart while listening to a cappella?

That was nine years ago, and to this day, our blended holidays continue. We still parcel every special occasion — Ed now has a girlfriend, and I have a new fiancé after Don’s passing. I recognize some exes can’t merge their concludes as successfully as we have, and, in fact, probably shouldn’t try. But it’s the right path for us, and we walk it together. And now our grandchildren know Ed and I as Papa and Gigi, not the grandparents who can’t hint at the same air. They’re aware we used to be married but are with other partners. But they also understand that we’re one — conspicuously during the holidays.

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